Monthly Archive for May, 2010

When will the laptop arrive?

Published on May 31, 2010 in Life. 0 Comments

Your package is on time with a scheduled delivery date of 05/31/2010.

Tick tock. Well?

It’s currently 3:15 PM.

It’s 4:37 PM. I conclude that UPS is fucking retarded. I called them numerous times (and Lenovo) to inform them of my intercom code, and I also posted a note on the damn intercom directory that specifically tells the god damn UPS driver to dial my damn intercom code — and even listed my cell number. But alas, I receive the following on their website:

3:36 P.M.
A CORRECT COMPANY OR RECEIVER NAME IS NEEDED FOR DELIVERY. UPS IS ATTEMPTING TO OBTAIN THIS INFORMATION

What??? So I called them again for the Nth time and gave them both my cell phone and home phone numbers. What now? Wow UPS is stupid.

4:45 PM. “Brandy” from UPS just called. Did they think my apartment number was the building number? Maybe UPS is stupid, but I like how they’re keeping in touch.

5:04 PM. So… you want me to meet up with the driver? the hell? Esghgh..

Well… at approximately 5:30 PM I ended up meeting the UPS driver at David Thompson Secondary School and picked up my laptop — netbook, rather. Setting it up right now. What a gong show that was. Almost like a clandestine mission.

Wake Up Call

Published on May 30, 2010 in Life. 0 Comments

So yesterday I sent an email to my former colleague, RK (from that first-year academic support conference), attempting to make some inquires for JX regarding t-shirts. Lo and behold, RK replies that she got into ubc medicine. Oh my fk’ing god. This is a wake up call. I’m not all that surprised that she made it, since she is super involved and has intense grades. But it’s a wake up call because this is so close to home. I mean… when others got in they seemed so distant, so far away. But RK… I knew her on a face-to-face, humanised basis! I am happy for her. At the same time I realise that time flies. Wake up call.

So I need to seriously do some volunteer work this summer. I will print out the VCH volunteer form tomorrow. Also the involvement opportunity with JX does not sound too bad. Need to follow up on that and see what’s going on. Wake up call damn it.

So last night I had another one of those moments. One of those moments of doubt: do I really have what it takes? Can I really make it? Will I success? I’ve had numerous such moments before, and this was nothing new. Having done relatively well academically this past year, I was less panicky, but nonetheless it was one of those moments. After finishing my sixth hour of studying for research methods midterm exam at 1 AM I went onto the UAlberta website and drifted off into med/grad land.

Went to bed at 3 o’clockish. Time! — waits for no one. So UAlberat medicine requires Physics. 100 doesn’t do it. If I were to apply, I would need to take 100, and take two more (since I need 6 credits). Any physics course above 100 requires math. I dread math. but I love it at the same time. I dread math like I dread CA? Ha.. it’s a challenge. Oh my fucking god. You’re shitting me. Fuck. Physics 101 requires differential calculus. Physics 102 requires fucking integral calculus. Fuck. God damn it! Fuck!!!!

Also, I felt last night that the course-based MPH looks slightly weak. Am I correct in saying this? Maybe MSc — thesis-based would also be worth exploring? Definitely.

So I need to do my science prerequisites soon damn it. I would like to finish biology 121 this summer and preview chem 121/123.

I just read TSN’s website/CV. Wow…

Right now I feel somewhat weak, vulnerable, and uncertain. I want to be a doctor. I know I can do it. Can I? Do I know? This uncertainty is usually empowering. Is it? Maybe? Why?

So I met with JX this morning and played tennis, had quizno’s, and some tea afterwards. Had some more insightful discussion this time, specifically with regards to relationships, interpersonal skills, leadership/involvement, and that organisation. It was quite heart to heart. I enjoyed it.

I have so many questions. But deep down, I feel secure: more secure than last year this time. Maybe forget about U of A? Sigh…

How strong is my will power?

Published on May 28, 2010 in Life. 0 Comments

I will study for 6 hours tomorrw, sunday, and monday = 3 x 6 = 18 hrs. Done.

From this moment on, I will respect the others’ privacy. Done.

I am at peace. Done.

Weather Woes on a Friday

Published on May 28, 2010 in Life. 0 Comments

It’s Friday. I’m home alone. Doing the laundry.

Why is the weather so weird these days? It’s been raining/cloudy for the past 2 weeks or so. The week ahead doesn’t look great either. I need two good (sunny) days during the week: 1) go to the garden with CA and 2) host the dinner.

I hope the laptop arrives soon. Please? It will. I think? I hope?

Do I smell things that don’t exist?

Published on May 27, 2010 in Life. 0 Comments

Am I experiencing Phantosmia? I remember back when I lived on Dow Ave in Burnaby as a young boy near Metrodown, one day as I was walking back home from the mall I started smelling a horribly rotten smell. The smell, as I recall, went on to last for a number of years, despite the lack of apparent pathological processes. I remember seeing a number of doctors, had no idea what my diagnoses were, was given medication to which I reacted strongly, and finally saw a specialist at the Children’s Hospital who recommended that I use saline mist regularly. I continued to use salt water for some periods of time, and eventually (I don’t recall when) as I grow old I experienced a spontaneous remission with the problem.

This morning, I passed gas a number of times, in which I noticed a rather odd odour: my flatus smelled rather irregular, by that I mean it smelled like rotten garlic chives (Allium tuberosum). What? For the rest of the day, I noticed this smell: it seemed to follow me where ever I went. Am I experience an olfactory hallucination?

Describe today’s symptom. For no apparent reason, I would smell this rotten smell. It emerges especially well when I exhale with my nose very lightly. It feels slightly more dominant in my left nostril, which is very slightly congested but no irregular. I can best describe the smell as that of rotten garlic chives. It’s rather — I’m trying to find a word that describes “smells bad” but I’m not able to do so… it starts with a P.

I am sitting in the business school building right now, as DC and mom are attempting to move, once again. I will research more about Phantosmia. I wonder how long this will last this time. Do I actually smell a scent that exists or is my brain merely making this up? Both would be bad because if the smell really exists, it would probably indicate the presence of an infection. If it doesn’t really exist, then an olfactory hallucination doesn’t sound too sweet either. I wonder if this had anything with my anxiety attack over the moth invasion of my bedroom last night. Illusory correlation? Anything to do with the fact that I’ve been stung by an insect on multiple spots on my legs? More illusory correlation? I just thought about another thing that I wanted to type up but I don’t recall. Damn it. What about with the fact I my dinner last night consisted of a whole pot full of saltly onion soup? The subsequent dehydration and rapid rehydration?  I don’t want to go out with CA if this smell is real. Ah. Time to go on MD Consult. Ahh I just passed gas again. The increase in intensity of this horrible smell confirms that the gas does smell like. Maybe it’s the remaining gas fragrances? Hmm.